First Sunshine, now Versatile

Ha ha hahaha… That’s just swell… I’ve been graced by the Lovely Mars with a Versatile blogger award… that’s hilarious….

Like before, I shall honor the aspects of the award yet I do not know 15 blogs to pass this on to. But since this is the second time receiving an award that requests me to pass this onto others, I’ll provide the links to the bloggers I follow

There’s the one who gave me the award in the first place: Mars
The lovely individual who gave me the Sunshine award: Miss Rachel
Honorable mentions are:
Erin of Analyfe Who posts intriguing posts that blends optimism with perspectives
The ever interesting Jenny of The Jenny Blog She caught my eye with Bacon and Balance… well mostly Bacon.
The Scientist Kyle Hill of Science-Based Life I keep my scientific mind sated by reading his posts which are updated daily.

And I’m afraid that’s it, I follow these people so far, so this is all I have to offer to whoever is reading this.

Now then, 7 Random Facts about myself:

  1. I have Red hair on my head and beard, Blonde Arm and Mustache hairs, and Black eyebrows… And I’m a Full blooded Mexican.
  2. I’m a have a Bachelor’s in  Biology with a Minor in Biophysics
  3. My Favorite Movies are Jackie Chan’s Who Am I? and Kingdom of Heaven
  4. I’m training myself to prepare for the eventual Zombie Apocalypse
  5. I’m into Paintballing as well as Warhammer (heh, a Nerd of both extremes)
  6. I have a shirt that says “Meh.” which is a word I use frequently
  7. I pray a Rosary every night before I sleep. (which signifies that I’m Catholic, in case you’re wondering)

So there. I suppose I should post the images of the awards that I’m talking about.

Sunshine Award

Versatile Blogger Award

You know, I’m not really sure what qualifies me for either of these awards, I guess they had no one else to give it to. Heh, “A Winner by default”! That’s Funny!

Class Change: Knight!

OK, So April 30th is when I start my 6-week challenge on NF! And I’ve decided to modify my workout routine just a bit more…. Sorta.

Starting on April 30th, I will completely immerse myself into the PowerHowse Challenge, that I got some time ago. It’s about time I used them, although I suppose I needed the balance that NF had granted me, causing me to find peace within myself and with my life and interests. I thought I would find this peace with some Martial art, as they usually bring balance to those who practiced it, but that’s usually after years of training in said Art. So now I really have nothing stopping me from getting into  better shape! No Excuses!

Hmm… So now all that’s left to work on is my diet, and I have no way to fix that, seeing as to how I don’t have any income nor my own place, oh well, that’ll have to come later, perhaps, I can subtly change my diet and just focus on main groups while avoiding others, like soda…

So for now my exercises will revolve around 2 phases: Push and Pull, they are routines that mainly consist of exercises that focus the particular muscle group into either pushing the weight or pulling it. It’s really taxing and I think that’s the best thing about it! I find myself thinking to myself, “I don’t want to do this anymore! I do not want to do this anymore!” but then I see that white figure again and I push myself to the point where I’m just sitting there trying to catch my breath, which causes me to laugh, adding to my weirdness… Boy, I’m glad I’m not at the Gym, otherwise people would think I’m crazy.

OK, so along with this, I will keep to my goals of doing 100 Push-ups a day, 10-15 Pull-ups in a row, and read Machiavelli’s the Prince, all within 6 weeks!…. Awesome!

Pshaw, I got this!

On a side note, I’m now an official Volunteer at the Community hospital that I was trying to get a job at. So that’s half a victory. I was hoping for the job, but I guess I have to wait and see what God has in store for me, job-wise. Heh, maybe I’ll get lucky and get noticed enough to get a job there. And when I do, the first thing I’m going to purchase, are lessons from a Muay Thai dojo and learn a Martial Art! Finally! let’s hope I can maintain the loan payments while doing so.

So all in all, Today was not a grand victory, but a sign of things to come. Interesting things.

Ready, Set, GO!

OK, So I think I have my 3 goals set for my next NF 6-week challenge! It took me a while but I’m certain that these will provide the proper difficulty and help me become stronger on more levels than one. And they are:

  1. Perform 10 Pull-ups in 1 setting.
  2. Perform 100 Push-ups in a day.
  3. Read 1 book from the List.

So that’s it, 2 Fitness goals, 1 Life goal, as per the conditions of the Challenge.

Let’s see, currently I can do 7 chin-ups, which when attempting Pull-ups, would be at least 5; I can do lots of push-ups, in under a minute, I haven’t tested myself lately, on how much, but I’ve been doing those Feet-elevated push-ups during some of my exercise routine, and I think I’ll count those for 2 each, due to their difficulty and the fact that I would’ve done 15 close-grip Bench Presses beforehand; and in terms of the reading, I have the list of 110 books that I’ve planned to read during the course of my life, so I just have to pick one that’ll last me the entire 6 weeks… Perhaps some Shakespeare, or one of the Philosophers… I’m thinking Plato or Aristotle or perhaps someone I’m not familiar with, like Machiavelli…

Heh heh, I almost have my goals set… I’m certain that I’ll find the book before the Challenge starts. Luckily I stumbled upon several digital libraries with which to find the book. Heh and it appears I just did, I will read The Prince by Niccolo Machiavelli. Thanks to for it.

There, now all my goals are set. All that’s left is for the Challenge to begin and I will tackle this thing head on!


What I’ve learned from Childish things

I was thinking about how I learned all the things that help made me the individual that I am. Articulation, strange sense of humor, common sense, even the way I see the world. And how did I learn all this?

Video Games, Cartoons, Nerdy board games, Anime, Movies… and, you know what? I’m happy for that! Heh, allow me to emphasize using just video games…

One of my favorite video games is Final Fantasy, and it’s one of the most world-renowned Role Playing Games in the world. The very first Final Fantasy game gave you the choice to create a party of 4 characters, using 7 different individuals with their own unique traits and powers. You had the Fighter, the Black Belt, the Thief, The White Mage, the Black Mage and finally the Red Mage. From the very start you had to decide what combination of classes was best to take on the rest of the world with. And the game itself made it clear that if you were not prepared for what lies ahead, it will crush you. There was no cheat codes, no DLC, not even a strategy guide (at least I didn’t have access to one then). So at a very young age, I learned to be prepared for anything that can happen, and even then, you couldn’t plan for everything, so you’re forced to allow yourself some space to improvise if the going gets tough, and trust me, at 8-bits, it doesn’t get harder than this.

And nothing to bring them back...

Another video game that taught me an important life lesson is: Super Mario Bros. the very first one. In that game, there really were enemies abound, from corner to corner you couldn’t escape one without running into another just as menacing. But this game taught you that a single mistake can lead to DEATH! No half-way points, no lesser enemies, no extra help. You were faced with the exact same scenario that you died in, it didn’t matter if you were an inch or a mile away from the goal, the moment you let your guard down, you were eaten alive. In this, you learn not to hesitate when the moment calls for it, to take a leap of faith when you’re faced with no time to think.

Let your guard down for a Moment.

Other than these obviously frustrating things, but through them, and several others, I’ve learned the interweaving of a story, the twists and turns of a plot, how to build suspense, and how to make the heart skip a beat. Video games have taught me what it means to have Honor, Duty, Respect, Culture, Articulation (from those long monologues from the Bad Guy), this list is rather endless. One thing is certain, “There’s always another way.” This is manifested in various forms in Video Games. “If a Boss keeps killing you, find better equipment” translates into “If something is stopping you from reaching your goal in life, you must find other means to get to it.”- Final Fantasy. “If you’re surrounded by enemies, get a Turtle shell and make a path!” translates into “If you can’t go over an obstacle in life, and you can’t go under it either, then go through it.”- Mario Bros. “If you can’t reach that platform, try searching for something you’ve overlooked” translates into “if you find yourself stuck at a point in life, perhaps you have overlooked something you already have to help you. Don’t give up.”-Legend of Zelda.

If it wasn’t for my playing these games for hours on end, I wouldn’t stare at the night sky and ponder about the various things that lie just beyond this world’s grasp. I wouldn’t have an open mind to accept the friendships of various people from all over. I wouldn’t have gotten important perspectives in life, the dichotomy of good and evil within someone, the importance of being prepared in all situations, the appreciation of a job well done after hours of pain and turmoil (well, virtual anyways).

In the end, we are made up of what we’re born with and that’s a LOT of room for potential. If we are able and encouraged properly, we can take even the most useless wastes of time and forge our own character, one that can withstand all the horrors and pains in this world, and be the Knight in Shining armor, defending the helpless against the greatest of evils.

It could happen

A Day well wasted or wasted well…

Today, was interesting, Norm was sick so he couldn’t go to work, so he stayed home and helped me attend to some errands that had to be done. One was returning some material at Home Depot, in exchange for a simple replacement key, and the other was sending a broken printer to FedEx to mail it to the company. OH, Man! That was randomly and ridiculously long. First, we arrived at the shopping plaza that it was ‘supposedly’ in, couldnt’ find it, so we left it looking for another place that was on the other side of the small city, and couldn’t find it there, either. So we looked up a third one, and when we had arrived, it was in the plaza that we started out in!! D’oh!! That took 2 hours! So we finally get there and as I’m following the instructions given to me by the representative of the company, I notice that the address said XXXXX, Ontario and the Zip code had letters as well as numbers, I asked the FedEx woman (who was wonderfully understanding) and she said that the address is in Ontario, CANADA. Now, this will cost us a hefty penny so I decided to call the company again to see if I got the right address. And wouldn’t you know it? A Canadian man picked up, I can tell by the sound he made after every sentence, ‘Eh?’ So I’m talking to him outside the FedEx store and he’s having me wait 5 minutes while coming back only to tell me that I have to wait for 5 more minutes. I was patient at first (Always giving others the benefit of the doubt) but by 20 minutes, of “Hang on, sir, let me get the information to you, please hold” I’m getting frustrated. So I tell him, “Look, just tell me the address so I can write it down and get this over with.” “Oh well, I sent it to your email, sir.” he replies. “Wait,” I say, “Let me get this straight, you want me to drive all the way back home just to get on my laptop to get the address you can easily tell me over the phone just to drive all the way back here and send it to you?” “…. Yes… sir.” Heh, were this an anime, the stereotypical vein would’ve popped on my head.

So I said to him, in a *ahem* ‘stern’ manner “OK, Why don’t you just tell me that address and all information so I can write it down and sent it to you?” after hearing the tone in my voice, he complied and told me all the information as well as the account number to have his company pay for the shipping. And after all that was done, I ask him, “What is your name?” He said it, “Uh huh, and what is your extension?” and I got a “OKthankyoufortime, Goodbye!” Click!

Norm and I rented some movies and went home. But during our brief time at the video store, I saw my old high school friend Marlena, who I had missed for quite some time. So we caught up for a little while and then went home after picking up some Hawaiian BBQ. So I ate, cooked some Turkey for the remaining brothers, and then watched 3 movies, 2 with my mom and 1 with my bros. Contraband, Mission: Impossible – Ghost Protocol, and Darkest Hour, respectively. And by the time I knew it, it was 9pm! Then Stephanie came and showed us her Baptism video and when she left it was 10:30pm!

CRAP! I forgot to study AND exercise!…………. Well… I suppose I can make it up tomorrow. Today I was spending time watching movies with my family, so I suppose it wasn’t such a bad thing. So I guess I took a day off… Heh, I should do this more often!

I Must Surpass Myself

I was chatting with several friends of mine, one being my lil sister, who reminded me of our arrangement. I must be able to carry her, sideways like I’m going to lay her down, for a brief moment. And when I’m able to do this, I will receive a reward, which oddly enough is our Anniversary gift for 6 years of close friendship. Because truth be told, She’s not related to me by blood but by bond.

That being said, I’ve decided it was time for me to take on the PowerHowse Challenge, I bought from Chad Howse, who’s been more than kind to answer my questions and lack of exercising from the time I purchased the program. But I must admit it is tough. Heh, that’s an understatement, When I’m working out, I finish a set and as I’m preparing myself to do the final set, I’m saying to myself “I don’t want to do this! I don’t want to do this!” But I force myself to keep going and push as hard as I can. Because whenever I’m exhausted or feel like giving up, a voice comes to me mocking me as well as encouraging me by saying random things…

“That’s it?” “You’re going to give up now?” “Bruce Lee always says push beyond your limits. Have you reached your Limit, yet?” “So are you giving up because you’re tired or because you want to give up?”

That last one always gets my blood boiling! Albeit, it’s most likely my own voice, it’s strange enough to bear that older, “looking down at me”, sense, encouraging me by mocking me, Tough love for simplistic purposes.

And I think this works best for me, because it challenges me. I’m not a confrontational person, in the least, however when I imagine the future or look ahead, or even Meditate, I see a white silhouette, I cannot make out much of it, but I can see it’s a man with a trench coat of some sort, he’s standing before me and for whatever reason the wind is always blowing and causing his coat to appear waving to one side, like in an anime. Kinda like this for lack of a better picture:

I can never see his face, yet I know they he’s always looking at me, I know he’s smiling at me, I can never tell whether it’s a kind or cruel smile. Yet I find myself using this individual as a comparison, as a par to which I must surpass, an opponent I must defeat. I get the feeling that he has what I want, he’s reached a goal I’m striving to obtain. And him looking back at me, signifies that he’s looking down on me, like he’s better than me, yet I don’t know how or why I feel this way. He stand before me yet we might as well be worlds apart. I can never reach him.

I don’t know who this man is, and since this came up under my self-examinations and usually when I’m exercising, it leaves me with a hint that this might be me in the future. So, why the animosity?… Heh, I can ponder over this for hours on end, and wind up with no answer… It’s kinda fun,  actually…

Whoever this is, be it myself or someone else, I have set myself his opponent, not his enemy per say, but someone who will try to beat him and surpass his skills and achievements. I do not have a name for him, yet… I wonder though, why is he always smiling at me?

Well, I’ll end this here, as it’s late and I must pray my Rosary before I sleep.

A ray of Sunshine

Heh, I’ve been selected for the Sunshine Award, and as fantastic as that is, I feel no change in the future with this. I don’t feel encouraged nor determined, I don’t feel inspired nor joyful. Heh, if anything, I just feel like laughing! No, this is no disrespect to the one who nominated me, Miss rayannsom, in fact I’m honored that I’m one of the 10 she’s chosen, but I must admit that my life will not change dramatically after this award, women will not recognize me on the street and ask for an autograph, nor will slick business men offer me the world on a gold platter, nor will any child dream to aspire to be like me for the sake of winning this award himself.

No, but I can’t stop smiling at this, just the thought of it, I actually thought that I had won something randomly special, but it wasn’t, it was just random as is! And that’s making me laugh! I guess if the purpose of the award was to make someone else feel better, then I guess it worked, but I can make do without the award, although I gave my word that I will conform to the questions that come with said award.

1. Favorite color? Red, if you haven’t figured it out yet. It’s who I am. Basically.

2. Favorite animal? Cats, Birds, Big Cats, Reptiles… in no particular order. The Scientist in me favors these above others.

3. Favorite number? 3, if not 7. I like 3 due the various correlations is bears like a Triangle has 3 sides, 3 corners, etc, and 7 because I’m the 7th child, guess that makes me lucky.

4. Favorite non-alcoholic drink? Milk, Water, Soda. Heh, I don’t drink alcohol, so with that said, I’ll drink anything else, I once drank Distilled Water with frozen CO2 as ice cubes from a beaker!

5. Prefer Facebook or Twitter? Facebook. Don’t have a Twitter account, I don’t see a point in it.

6. My passion? Life, Helping others, the Future, Self-improvement, Culture, My Family, and pretty much anything new! Adventure!

7. Prefer getting or giving presents? I’ve always liked giving gifts, I hold no expectations to receive anything so if I do get something, I sorta freak out a lil at the generosity of it all.

8. Favorite pattern? Pattern? I guess anything artistic, like flames or an ocean line. I really can’t think of anything else.

9. Favorite day of the week? Friday! although Saturday and Sunday are my favorites as well as my family tends to do fun things then.

10. Favorite flower? The Rose. I’ve always had a Rose bushes in my garden and I plan to keep having them in the future. They’re the King of the Flowers.

And so passes 6 weeks…

6 weeks from today, I had accepted a challenge that I’ve posted for myself on An interesting challenge that’s meant to test and push me beyond my limitations and inspire me to achieve the goals agreed upon. The 3 goals were divided into 2 fitness goals and 1 life goal. They were as follows:

1) Bench press 80lbs
2) Perform the Strength training exercises with 70 lbs across the board

Get a job.

Unfortunately, I overestimated my abilities and couldn’t achieve the weight I had aimed for, nor could I get a job, as I am still unemployed. Alas, I have been defeated by this Challenge. but that’s alright, because I still have my ambition to become stronger, and I’ve found a new workout routine. And it would be an understatement to say that it was difficult. I’ll call it “The Push routine” for simplistic purposes, because that’s what it consists of, each exercise focused on pushing via bench press or squats or weighted sit-ups. I can only hope that pain on my upper right back isn’t serious or will hinder me from continuing my exercises because I hate being restricted.

Heh, I can tell I’m going to be sore tomorrow and that’s a good thing, in a twisted way. Twisted in the sense that it’s painful, but good in the sense that my body will adapt to this.

Nosce te ipsum, Latin for “Know thyself” which I have always thought was an important skill to master, the Self. To know how you will react or respond in any given situation because you know yourself that well. I always tell people that I’ll help them up whenever they fall, I may be laughing while I’m doing it, but I’ll still help… just laughing as I’m doing it. But knowing what motivates you, what weakens you, what fills you with compassion, anger, gentleness, fury, kindness, fear, is the key to understanding how to overcome the bad one and focus on the good ones. For example, I’m a sucker for a girl with curly long hair, I think artificial curling moreso than natural, but knowing this, I can understand what attracts me to some girls over others, and so on.

So now, I’m faced with another challenge, “What do I do now?” Well I think the answer to that is rather obvious: I keep going! I still need a job, Graduation is in June along with my loan payments, My volunteering orientation is the 24th, so there’s really no reason for me to slow down now. I can’t I have too many things to do! And with these new routines, I’m going to be in a lot of pain… Mind you, I’m smiling while I’m typing this. The ticket to the future is open, and I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring!

The Forgotten

Nikola Tesla, inventor MANY things, including AC power and the Death ray, was overlooked by Edison and his invention of the light bulb, and his fraction of inventions that paled in comparison to Tesla’s. Upon reading more about the man, I’ve made it my goal to one day build my own Tesla Coil… If possible. It’s sad to see how often we over look someone who seemingly does SO much,  for someone else who has done so little. I wonder why that is…

The men and women behind the curtains, fighting the battles that the world will never see, saving it from dangers it never knew it had faced… This always makes a good story, like in the video game Tales of Vesperia, where you play an outlaw who leads a party to make the toughest decisions that saves countless lives, and through circumstance, your best friend, who’s a soldier, winds up taking the credit, despite his knowledge of your actions and sacrifice.

I remember being little, I’ve often told people that I would be one of those forgotten warriors, that I would never be the man people applauded and cheered, but I would be the man behind him, doing everything he could not do; in essence. succeeding where he would fail, reaching peaks that he would never attempt, facing opponents that he would never defeat. And I relished in that idea. I suppose I still do, because in my mind, I don’t want to become a doctor for the prestige, glory, and income that comes with it, I want to become a doctor because I want to help save lives and despite the fact that there are other ways to do this, I believe that this is the only route for me, personally, to take. To be the individual, worthy enough to hold someone’s life, literally and metaphorically in my hands.

I honestly think I can become this man. My only limitations are often the things outside my control, like my car breaking down several times, Mother becoming sick, and other such related events. But as a Catholic man, I am confident that everything happens for a reason, God has a plan to place me exactly where I need to be when I need to be there, I just need to make the effort into getting there. Yet, with my limitations comes knowledge, and wisdom to help me in the future. For example, thanks to my car breaking down, I can change anything on a car from it’s oil to it’s transmission module, which makes repairing my own car easier. Each event that seems to have pulled me back or hindered me in some fashion has helped me obtain experience that I would otherwise not have obtained. And it’s not just practical skills, they’ve also helped me learned patience, humility, to laugh at my own helplessness (which is truly a difficult thing to learn), to dust myself off after a defeat, determination, the values of kindness and compassion, and so on.

I know one question I will be asked is, “What makes you think you’re the One worthy of this?” And for such a long time, I have struggled with the answer, at least a proper response that is satisfactory for it to be my answer. I can’t simply say, “I just know I am.” that won’t do, that’ll just lead me to failure. So how can I properly explain this feeling inside? Not to mention that I must very clear in my answer, otherwise, I’ll end up tripping over my words and I will show signs of uncertainty…

I know that the answer lies within me. Somewhere within… Underneath the scars and the dreams, lie the answer to why I believe that I am the man who can hold life and death in his hands. I did a quick glance at a survey done by Kaplan that said that 49% of medical school applicants are in it for the money, that ‘wanting to make a difference’ and ‘the desire to help others’ are just plain, empty words. Will my words be just as empty? Will I fail to rise to the occasion and meet these penetrating questions without my courage, passion and strength? I should already have all the motivation I need in order to fashion a proper response, so why am I hesitating? What am I missing? Death? Life? Love? What more could it take to rid me of these doubts?!

… I suppose I’m not the only one with doubts, especially in this line of work. I have to do some internal searching and find the truth behind my motives, as deep and personal as they are, if they are asked of me, I will, no I must speak the truth. I’ve begun typing a list of everything that can possibly be my reasons for doing this, I will be sure to keep looking over it and reminding myself of the reasons why I’m in this. I know all of the reasons are within me, but knowing me, I know that I’ll only remember a few at a time and even less than that under strenuous circumstances.

I have all the strength I need to fight this fight, however I cannot allow myself to forget why I’m fighting.

I Challenge You!

Pistols at Dawn!… No, I’m just kidding, but I do have a Challenge for you, which I’ll get to later on…

I was in the shower today and I’ve wondered about all of the challenges that are in life, after working out, my competitive side was aching for something to challenge, and it got me thinking…

You have the classic “You against me”  challenge, where someone pits their strength, or abilities against another persons strength or abilities, but that’s there between those two people, yet, what about the unknown challenges? The challenges when one man/woman faces against themselves? Their opponent is that voice inside their head saying, “No.” “Stop.” “I can’t.” Or perhaps, their opponent is a temptation or a habit that needs to be defeated in order to live a better life? Or even the challenge of where one is going to get their next meal, if you want to go to extremes like that.

Now, how do we face these challenges? Often times, people just ignore the challenge altogether and run, avoiding the responsibilities that are dependent on them. Some people think that the challenge is too great and they will be defeated so they might as well not even bother to try. And yet, there are others still, who despite the odds stacked against them, rise up to the challenge, regardless of what it may be.

These people are not fearless, nor are they the strongest of the clan, nor are they even the brightest, no, these people are scared, weak, and have no clue what to do. So why do they do it? Why stand when they’re so scared to? The answer to this is quite simple. It is because they are scared that they stand. It is because they are weak that they fight. It is because they have no idea what they are doing, that they make a decision.

” Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear, not absence of fear” -Mark Twain
“When you do not know what you are doing and what you are doing is the best – that is inspiration” -Anon.
“You choose to go voluntarily into the fire. The blaze might well destroy you. But if you survive, every blow of the hammer will serve to shape your being. Every drop of water wrung from you will temper and strengthen your soul” -Margaret Weis

Each of these quotes from great minds acknowledge that in order to prove that you’re something, you must prove that you’re something you are not. Yes, it is the most difficult thing to ask of someone, it’s difficult to exert effort and rise above your limitations, and the reason for the difficulty is proportional to how much worth it, your goal really is.

And, as optimistic as I am, I am aware that not every battle will result in victory, you will fight a fight, and no matter how much effort you put, there are some fights you will lose. And when that happens, you must learn to accept defeat. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t walk away from it without learning a thing or two. Thomas Edison said, “I have not failed 1,000 times. I have successfully discovered 1,000 ways to NOT make a light bulb.”

Defeat and the End are two very different places in life. Never mistake them. And now my Challenge for you:

Think of your defeats in Life, be they big or small, and think about how they’ve helped integrate you into who you are today. For you see, some defeats are victories in the long run…

See you around…