I was doing the dishes the other day, and in my usual routine, I check the previously washed dishes to make sure that they’re thoroughly clean, and often times I would find some that have things still sticking to the plates and cups and whatnot, so I would throw it in a pile with the other dirty ones and re-wash it.
And so that got me thinking…
In order for something to be truly clean, it must be thoroughly washed on all sides, front and back, in terms of dishes, not only the top of the plate needs to be clean, but underneath the plate too, despite the fact no one ever eats off of it, it needs to be washed too. The same with people.
I think of it like the soul of a person, in order for someone to truly be clean, or pure of heart, they must be clean on all aspects of their selves, even on the parts of them that no one ever sees or meets. How can you say you’re a good person, if in the back of your mind you know that there’s some part of you that isn’t?
That seems to be something that’s on my mind lately, I’m not a perfect man, but I try to be a good man, and I know that there are demons that I lose to, simply due to their difficulty of overcoming them. So if I have this, how can I call myself a good man?
I remember watching a TV special about the psychology of the Joker, and what I gathered was an interesting concept from it, “If I was bad, how can I ever call myself good?” That is to say, if I can be subject to being corrupted, then how can I be a good person, if I’m still vulnerable to it?
Surely, all someone needs to do is simply discover my weakness, and then expose it to the world, then who will take my word when I give it? Who will trust me, when they find a part of me that they cannot trust? Granted, one can argue that I’m human and subject to mistakes, and/or that those who distrust me, are simply hypocrites because who are they to say, that they’re better than me, and so on.
The point here, is that in order to be honestly clean or an honestly good man, I need to best my demons, and not allow myself to be subject to their vices. This ability is what separates those who claim to be good men, and those who are good men… and women.
It’s all about Willpower, the ability to resist what truly makes you weak in the knees, what makes an individual truly brave, is not the lack of fear, but the mastery, the conquering of the fear. Otherwise how can one truly be considered tested, if there never was the possibility of failure?
So in truth, one shouldn’t see the demons as that demons of maniacal nature, hell-bent on pure destruction, grand in stature and made of energies that are incomprehensible, but as what they truly are obstacles. “An obstacle is something you see, when you take your eyes off your goal” as the saying goes. Demons are no different, you’re truly bested by them when you give in to your vices, and become the Demon, your life is consumed and then you strive to living in nothing but the vice that has consumed you so, the proverbial Downward Spiral.
So, in the end, how can I claim to be a good man when there are times when I wasn’t? Simple, I keep on going, I realize that fact, and I keep trying. I have to find ways to improve, if I don’t try anything new and remain stagnant, then I’m not a good man, because I’m not actually trying to beat the demon; if I give in, then that’s just going backwards, and that’s no good at all.
The ultimate evidence that I’m a good man, is to try to find new ways to become clean, via a new sponge, or even a better soap. The point is that what makes me a good man, isn’t ridding myself of these demons, although that would be fantastic, what makes me a good man, is that I find ways to help me be a good man, find sources of strength that help me find balance and eventually find my own strength, so should the time come, and I stand before the great Demon’s challenge, then I will defeat it.