A Wonderful Doubt

I was talking with a friend of mine last night and it passed over my picture on the heading of this journal, I jokingly brought up a concern of mine that if my pictures keep showing only my back, then everyone is going to forget my face and only recognize me by my backside, to which she replied, “a wonderful doubt!”

Speak of doubts, in terms of my old laptop, I’ll lend it to my mother, so that she can hold on to it and use it whenever she pleases, this is a bit of a relief, because I don’t want to give/sell/get rid of my laptop. After I clear all of my stuff on the old laptop, I’ll have no qualms letting her hold on to it for me.

Anyways, I remember in Animes and Mangas, when a person remembers a particularly driven character, they’re always depicted as walking away from the screen, in resemblance of their motivation and efforts of trying to achieve blank goal. So now I wonder if I’m remember as such? Of course, this is something I’ll never know unless someone tells me, but I highly doubt that’ll ever come up in conversation.

So the idea is how can I live a life where, when remembered, will be as if I’m always moving forward?

If I am to gain this imaginative attribute of always walking away, I need to manifest all of the aspects of ‘always looking forward’ so this means, I need to be Optimistic, Driven, Motivated, Happy, Energetic, Enthusiastic, Purposeful, Confident.

Heh, I’m not too sure if I bear all these traits, but it’s good to know what it takes to have people think of you in such a manner. In order to be seen as a strong person, you have to first show how strong you are to yourself. All of these traits are things that cannot be faked, not really, you can’t pretend to be happy when you’re really sad, it’ll eventually come to light that you’re really depressed. I believe that everyone displays a sort of energy or aura about them, when you’re energetic, others get excited, when you’re laughing, others laugh too, this is definitely observed when there’s a mob and a singular mentality. But the idea is that you need to be the example of Determination when it came to your goals and beliefs, constantly striving for bettering yourself, or perfecting a goal, or achieving an accomplishment.

For now, I’ll settle for having pictures of myself stationary, smiling, and enjoying the present situation that I’m in, because I really am. I’m glad to be right here, right now, but I can’t stay still. Not for too long. I still have a long ways to go, and I can’t stay here and watch my opportunities fly away from my grasp. I need to fight stagnation and keep progressing, even if it’s only little by little. I still have things that need to be done, and I still have progress that hasn’t been made yet! I can’t stop now! I can’t even slow down, not yet!

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54 comments on “A Wonderful Doubt

  1. ashadeofpen says:

    wow…it feels special to be a part of the post 🙂 I do a happy dance..yay and yes you got loads of character and stay happy..be blessed Red 🙂

    • red1263 says:

      Ha ha ha, Well it’s said that our true character reveals itself, not during times of peace and tranquility, but during times of stress and turmoil

      • ashadeofpen says:

        But I often say ur character stays with you all the times…it can be seen in the depth of the eyes and surfaces above and goes behind 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        hmm… That’s true. The Eyes are the windows into the soul, stare deeply and long enough in them and you’ll see everything that a person was, is, and can be.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        exactly..my sentiments echoes the same voice 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, guess we share some similar ideals about people.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        yes each one of us does at some point of time..some a lil more and some a lil less 🙂 the base of life 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha, I was referring to just you and me, but you’re right about this generalization too. Life’s full of billions of characters on an endless tapestry of history, some people are bound to connect easier than others.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        woopies…sometimes i get so carried away…i still wonder why i ended up an engineer..it is way away from what I am 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, it’s nice to be carried away sometimes. but if being an engineer is not what you are, then what are you?

      • ashadeofpen says:

        i am a poet..a writer…a on looker of life and a lot of things that a techie isn’t 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Well, why not be a Poet AND a Techie? Why should the people only have 1 side to their lives? Why not be someone who’s indepth?

      • ashadeofpen says:

        I just o not get the technical stuffs..sure i did good in my college..impressive grades..hell i was even termed geeky 😛 but the heart doesn’t connects with c, c++, Java, bla ba bla 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Well, it doesn’t connect unless you want it to. You’ll either find a way to connect it, or find an excuse not to. You? Geeky? Nah…

      • ashadeofpen says:

        hahah trust me…I buried myself in my books for 12 straight hours and that too 15 days before my exam 😛 I am the girl who did not take a break in school b’coz i was busy going through the lessons 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, that sounds like me during finals week at my University, save for the “girl” part. You’re among more friends than you think!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        hahahha…i super duper loved ur comment 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, I’m glad that you did. I always like making people smile

      • ashadeofpen says:

        and i always like to smile 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        ha ha ha, Then that must mean that you have a beautiful smile!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        smiles are always beautiful isn’t it so..? because it is associated with happiness 🙂 you bring out the philosopher in me 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Yes, when they’re natural, they light up the world! When they’re forced, they bring about sadness. Ha ha ha, Well I think it’s you who brings philosophy into these conversations, not me, I’m just replying to you

      • ashadeofpen says:

        but it takes two to tango..doesn’t it..buck up and accept compliments..and if i am not wrong…you too are smiling reading this…ain’t you..? gotcha:)
        p.s. if you were actually not smiling…then pls do…i hate to be wring 😛 i ma cent percent sure at least now you are smiling…don’t you ? 😛
        p.s.2 the p.s. note applies here too if you failed to smile even for the second time…i am funny…:_P

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha! Then shall we dance? And yes, you’ve not only made me smile, but I laughed too, I hope that this, in of itself, has made YOU smile!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        oh yes..i an smile even if you make it sound like a command…:) and virtual dance 😛 i am very very sloppy at that..i will end up giving you a plastered feet 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, knowing you, if someone says “smile”, you’d light up! Well, I’m lucky I wear steel-toed shoes, Dancing will be easy, just follow my lead.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        i can pierce steel…take my word on that…very very sloppy…i didn’t dance on my brother’s marriage when everyone else did…:P but hey i can dance with words 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, You keep piquing my curiosity! But I guess not being able to dance comes with the territory of being Messy. Then how should we dance with words?

      • ashadeofpen says:

        yes it is…messiness reaches another level altogeher when i comes to dancing…:P 😛 dancing with words is what we are already doing..jumping from one beautiful topic to other and making others smile 🙂 isn’t that the aim of dance..??

      • red1263 says:

        Well Dancing is meant as a means of expression, like words. It’s amazing what emotions you can show to the world by dancing, without saying anything and just moving your body to the rhythm you can reach into the hearts of many people, oddly enough you can do the same thing just by standing there and using nothing but words!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        wow…are you a trained dancer,..? and yes with my words…i can take u to another word where you are the charmer and the world is ur ground 🙂 the picture is urs and the canvas is colorful…so what you can do with ur dancing moves.i can try with my rhythmic words 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Oh me? I’m not trained dancer, but dancing is very important in a lot of cultures, my own included. Ha ha ha, I can be quite the charmer if I really tried, but I don’t like breaking hearts. I can slow time down, melt the world, away, and make your heart beat faster. Words takes a lot of effort to get that effect!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        oh wow…now this is confidence 🙂 and i am a word charmer 🙂 might not be the same level…but i have my own days 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Well, that was something we discussed earlier, no? I personally think that anyone can be a charmer, you just need proper training. You can be a dancer if you tried hard enough.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        i will fail fail and fail again…one area i do not really have the confidence…oh i am a sloppy singer too 😛 can pass for a scream 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha! Your feet, your voice, these are all muscles that can be trained! People aren’t just born with good dance moves or with a perfect voice, they take the time and energy needed to perfect what they already have, and you can too!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        hahah you are quite a motivator 😛 but dance seems like something i would always have a break up with 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        A special talent of mine has always been finding ways to inspire other people. I bet if you took classes you’d tear up a rug like no tomorrow!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        i dont know if i can tear up a rug but i will definitely tear my ligaments 😛 i really am not in the perfect shape for dancing and exercising is something i detest too 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, where did your confidence go? Didn’t we talk about this? You have the potential to be a Professional dancer, or just someone who can swing. It’s all a matter of time and effort, that’s all.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        hahha confidence is infectious and so is ur inspiration…but i will make a fool of myself 😛

      • red1263 says:

        The world cannot laugh at she who laughs at herself! If you can laugh it off, then who’s going to call you a fool?

      • ashadeofpen says:

        i, me and myself 😛 😛

      • red1263 says:

        Precisely, so unless one of those 3 doesn’t have a problem, with the other 2, You’re set!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        lolz…you are pretty adamant…isn’t it..?

      • red1263 says:

        When someone tells me that they can’t do something, I can’t help but show them that they can do whatever they set their minds to!

      • ashadeofpen says:

        and that’s the definition of inspiring 🙂 see i complimented and you are accepting it 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, Inspiring people is something of a reward in itself. It’s said the greatest leader isn’t the one who guides his people to follow his orders, it’s the one who helps the people do things all on their own, so that they think that he didn’t do anything.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        now you are insightful too…another compliment..wow you are on fire 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, Well, I must admit, I do like the Fire Element! I find a flame is very similar to what kind of person I want to be.

      • ashadeofpen says:

        fiery fiesta 🙂

      • red1263 says:

        Ha ha ha, You could say that.

  2. ashadeofpen says:

    and i Like the Idea of Living in the now…they call it present because it is a gift.. 🙂

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