“Feels Natural”

This morning, I awoke with an unusual feeling, it was something like dread. I was surprised and I let myself feel it enough to explore it, why I was feeling it and what experiences were tied to it.

I’ve found that I really don’t like my current situation. Granted, I was unemployed and I’m glad to have a job, but there’s no way for me to survive on this. If I found myself without a home tomorrow, I know for certain that I’m not making enough to survive.

It has been some time since I’ve gotten this feeling. I’ve become certified as a Phlebotomist. And at my job, I’m getting cross trained into several departments and in the back of my mind, it feels like Life is pushing me towards the Prosthetics route.

Now at this point, I’m not only enjoying my work, it feels natural when I work, sticking people and pulling needles from their arm. I remember a conversations with Nena about how I will know whether or not I’m being guided by God or by my own ambitions. And that’s how: It’ll feel natural for me to do it, almost feel right.

And now, despite the usual problems at work, I feel really good about it. Great, even. I’ve always saw this current job as a stepping stone towards my career, and it’s doing more than proving that. I’m starting to get excited to see what the future has in store for me.