I’ve noticed as of late that my mind tends to “settle” and I can actually function without thoughts or ponderings or even the slightest of fantasies (clean ones, mind you) pass through my attention. I drive and my mind is blank. I’m working on the task at hand and I’m not thinking about planets or viruses or philosophy. My day can start and end without flying off hundreds of miles away in some other realm.
I don’t like that.
A couple of days ago I was proud of myself for talking someone through a miscommunication at work. I was unbiased, open, and clear in my position. So when I felt proud of what I did, it was genuine and not boastful. I’m glad that I have that trait that can sit and talk with people and work things out. This is something about myself that I hope I never lose, God willing.
So when I noticed that my mind didn’t wander and ponder like it used to, I actually missed that. I like thinking about random things and having my curiosity tug at the corner of my free time and lead me down a path I didn’t intend to go.
So, after hearing a podcast from aom about how de Vinci let his mind and curiosity take the wheel while he wrote notes on everything, I felt inspired.
So I am making an effort to keep my mind sharp and not let it get drained on video games and Facebook. I’m going to use this journal to not only house my reflections but also my thoughts and ponderings as I face them in the world.
Lately, I’ve been having an itch for robotics and how to implement that into a human, or rather on a living creature. A sort of start for my future research when I get my Master’s. I think I’ll start by looking into what was already done before and find out how exactly they did what they did.
I have to try to find the joy in it. Usually when I endeavor on something like this purely out of curiosity it never really gets fulfilled, case in point: this journal that got tossed to the wayside. But I don’t want to lose that part of myself that likes to learn new things. And school is going to start soon, so I need to keep my mind fresh for the new info.
I guess I’ll start a new section on this book. Hmmm, I wonder what I should call it. Notes? Nah. Research? No, I don’t think so. Ehh, I’ll figure it out later. Right now I’m cooking dinner and I can’t let this burn.
Heh, real time journaling.
Well at the current moment I suppose I will simply just use ‘My Curiosities’ because that’s kinda what it is. I’m curious about something and I want to know what it is, is about, or what about it that fascinates me. Like that song from Moana that the crab sings, “Shiny” I find that I particularly like the transition when his song (and the crab himself) got darker. I like songs that have that sort of “shift” I wonder what it’s officially called.
Hmmm, I better have some kind of filing or way to separate and organize my curiosities otherwise it’ll look like a jumbled mess.
In either case, I’m kinda excited about this. I want to learn new things and I kinda want to waste time on things that no one bothered to think about. This should be fun!