Silencing the Alarm

Tomorrow will be the first Monday of Spring break, and in honor of this, I’ve turned off all of my alarms, I don’t plan on waking up early at all. Which is good, because lately, I’ve been staying up until 2 AM watching Game of Thrones from the beginning.

I suspect that I will not be able to get sufficient sleep, because the girls are on their break as well, meaning that I’ll be awoken by pleas to play and animals crawling all over me. But, oh well, such is life.

Random Quote #32

“Life is a long lesson in humility” – James M. Barrie

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History

“Be kind to everyone, because you don’t know what kind of battles they are going through.” – Plato

I saw the movie Saving Mr. Banks again, on DVD with my family, and here I bear witness, yet again, to people who have come from scarred backgrounds and risen to heights unimaginable.

I remember one of the prompts that I’ve written is, “How will my story be titled?” and my answer still is, a life that has slowed to a crawl.

But this chapter isn’t finished yet. In fact, I think that I’m merely not reading it right. Maybe, it’s not slowing to a crawl, but in fact, just shifting the focus of the attention to something else, something I haven’t been focusing on.

Time will always tell us the history that we forgot to see, maybe someone will point out something that I’ve never considered before, as per the usual with my life. But I have no worries, if this is the life God has chosen for me to walk, then this is where I must be.

Otherwise, if God wanted me to be somewhere else, then wouldn’t I already be there?

A Great Start to Spring Break

Today, I dropped off the girls to their school, picked them up afterwards, went to the movies with my Sister and Bro-in-law, and saw Chavez, that was a good movie. Picked up some supplies, playing Disney Infinity with my eldest niece, ate some Pizza, and now I’m starting to watch Game of Thrones, which was a trend I had failed to jump on when it started.

Quite a bit happened in one day, I must admit. If this is a foreshadowing of my Spring break, then I’m going to have a memorable one this year.

Watching Chavez showed me a history, I’ve all but forgotten. My Mexican heritage is full of heroes and martyrs, battles and spilled blood, pain and sorrow and sacrifice and loss. At the end of the movie, I felt guilty. Guilty that I have little to no memory of these things, these things that my people have gone through, that my family has gone through. Here I sit, with luxuries and food and a family, and looking at what I have seen, in the back of my mind, I knew that I have been taking all of it for granted. The labors and pain and sacrifices others have made should never be forgotten by the descendants of those who have made them…

And I will no longer forget my past.

Random Quote #182

Potest ex casa magnus vir exire – ‘A great man can come from a hut’ – Latin Proverb

 

Priorities

It’s 1:12 AM and I’ve discovered that for quite possibly the past hour or so, I’ve been wasting my time on the internet. I’m going to teach myself to manage my time more efficiently and be more productive.

Also Siry made me a Loom Bracelet, basically it’s small rubber bands tied together, it’s a bit girly, but it’s a gift from her, so like everything else she has given me, I will treasure it dearly.

I’ve been meaning to confess something.

I usually get somewhat “concerned” whenever I read scary stories, mainly based on real experiences other people have, it doesn’t even have to be long, but for some reason there’s a sudden stab of fear that causes my heart to beat just a bit harder, and for the life of me, I can’t understand why this always happens, it doesn’t matter of it’s a scary picture or a sentence, just the mere mention of ghosts or evil spirits and I get the idea that somehow by reading someone else’s story has caused some gateway to open in my life where the worst possible poltergeist can enter.

Fear comes from uncertainty, but that’s the funny part, after this sense of fear has entered my mind, any slight sound or noise grabs my attention, a small crinkle of paper and my attention darts towards its origin. It’s not only embarrassing, but disappointing. “In God’s perfect Love, there is no room for Fear” This passage from the Bible has always provided the comfort to rid my mind of this childish fear, but just the fact that it gets to me in the first place is where my frustration lies.

I don’t know, maybe I’m still a kid at heart and so I’ve discovered the bad side of that statement. In either case, I’m taking this as a sign that I’m still not putting my faith into my beliefs, which means that there’s still something I’m doing wrong… or maybe not doing something… I think, it’s something related to not actively showing my faith to those around me in public… I should smile and let God take control of my life at all times. After all, I’m human and am completely flawed, I’m an adult who gets scared from ghost stories, for Heaven’s sake! I’m laughing at myself as I’m typing this, this is just ridiculous, who am I to say that I’m in control of anything in this life? I could be hit by a bus tomorrow and that’ll be the end of it.

Kinda grim, I know, but still, the point remains. I need to reflect my religion into my mannerisms, not show it off, but to prove to myself and everyone around me, how much it truly is a part of my every day life… Which is pretty much every part of my life. So, whatever comes my way, I know it’s a gift from God!

Random Quote #127:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference -Reinhold Niebuhr

With Each Passing Day

I was reading about how some people write in their journals, and many of them make it a priority to write something every day, even if it’s just one sentence. So I thought to myself, ‘Why can’t I do that? Just a sentence, but each and every day. That will be good.’

So this is what I shall do, except I’ll try to make sure I write something significant, and be as less random as possible. Maybe I’ll throw in a “Quote of the Day” or something like that, heh, I really like quotes. So since I need to catch up on sleep…

“Quotes are nothing but inspiration for the uninspired.” – Richard Kemph

Two Days in One

Day 6: Pick a quote from our 80-ish quotes on manhood and reflect on why it stands out to you. Does it reflect a man that you aren’t yet, but hope to be? Does one of them remind you of a great man in your life who you’ve tried to model? If you can’t seem to reflect on a single quote, just take the time to write out a few of them that you like. Doing so will keep them top-of-mind and perhaps lead to some thoughts later down the road.

Day31

From the  many that they’ve provided, I’ve resonated with this quote. I’ve been pondering over trees and plant life lately, to the metaphorical point that we all must continue to “grow”, and now, I have a quote that sums it up nicely! This quote is about becoming a man at the end of a journey; with my feeling stuck in my life, this is a refreshing reminder that the adventure isn’t over, that I still have a lot of years ahead of me and that I’m a sap for feeling stuck in the first place. So to follow the questioning, This is something that reflects a man I wish to be. In terms of modeling, I’ve always wanted to be a man like my Father, tough and strong, yet gentle and kind, he’d make a great oak tree, I believe.

Day 7: You’ve made it one week! Reflect on what this newfound practice has been like. Getting through the first seven consecutive days is truly the hardest part. Have you enjoyed it? Has it been difficult? Has it been what you expected?

Wow, it’s been one week already? It has been one week into the new year, that’s a scary thought! Just last weekend, I took down all of my Christmas decorations, that I had lovingly put up with great joy, and now it’s all packed and put away! But I’ve gotta admit, I’m really enjoying this 31-day Journal Challenge. The hardest part, I’d say would be that sometimes I get to my laptop too late and I can’t write an entry, that’s pretty much it, my mind is comfortably adapting to these various prompts, despite how personal they may be. Hmm, I’m not a man of Expectations, I kinda went into this with a blank curiosity, but I like it.

Energy

There is a moment, a moment in time when you find yourself overwhelmed but a sensation… A sensation that envelopes you in such feelings that you become completely consumed by it. Your senses are overwhelmed by said sensation to the point that you had no idea how you were existing in the first place…

This is the moment when all of the rest of Time rests upon you. I believe that you can quite literally change History for the rest of time with this action, well at least Your history. To change how the story goes on the fly, what an amazing thing to have happen to one’s life.

So I propose a Question…

If one is able to make such a change in his own life, would that cause other people to change their lives for the better?

The answer should be a solid, undeniable “Yes”!

We are all tied together by a singular energy, a force that drives all of us. Marcus Aurelius said it best,

“All things are woven together and the common bond is sacred, and scarcely one thing is foreign to another, for they have been arranged together in their places and together make the same ordered Universe. For there is one Universe out of all, one God through all, one substance and one law, one common Reason of all intelligent creatures and one Truth. Frequently consider the connection of all things in the universe.
We should not say ‘I am an Athenian’ or ‘I am a Roman’ but ‘I am a citizen of the Universe.”

So when someone is overcome with a feeling of, not happiness, but Joy, she/he would be walking around with his/her head held high, a broad smile across the face, and this would have an effect on the people around them. They’d start smiling themselves, if only a little bit, and their day feels a bit brighter for just interacting with the joyful individual, all the while not knowing why. But the hidden truth is that the joyful energy of the individual spreads to others, without anyone’s notice, and thanks to that singular universal bond we all share, there is no barrier to stop it.

So I’m curious, if one can do that without realizing it, can one also attempt to harness that ‘transfer’ ability and purposefully give other people one’s own energy?

I guess that’s a rather difficult question to answer, because you can’t force Joy unto others, it comes naturally. The opened hand receives while the fist remains closed to the world. I suppose, all one can do is just stay true and honest to everyone including oneself, and with that, others will feel a sense of honesty, or at least feel threatened by one because they’re scared of what he thinks…

Heh, this post was a complete bust, I’m starting to ramble, when I wanted to continue reflecting on my previous post. Meh… I’ll get it next time… I think… I’m tired… my thoughts are scrambled and too random to continue… I’ll see you later… Heh, I’m out of energy… Heh heh heh…