My To-Do List

This is what I have to take care of, both internally and externally. Some of these things will be easy and only require a small amount of my time and energy, but others will take a lot more. Some of these will be serious, others practically pointless, Doing this, It’ll also help me remember anything else I don’t have at the front of my mind. So in no particular order…

  • Talk to Occupational Health about that shot I need in order to Volunteer
  • Look up Guitar lessons at the College
  • Catch up on Bible reading
  • Read Marvel’s Civil War and the rest of the Comics I just recently obtained
  • Exercise
  • Write in my personal journal
  • Read my Biophysics book
  • Read my Anatomy books
  • Practice Guitar
  • Plan Chicago Trip and prepare
  • Practice Spanish (either by myself or with others)
  • Clean and Vacuum my room
  • Buy the materials to build my Whiteboard closet door
  • Complete application for Ambassador position for work
  • Save money for the car
  • Make time for Meditations
  • Learn more about Cosplay
  • Get a Doctor and get a physical

Well at this point, I’m seeing a lot of reading/learning/relearning. Stuff that just requires me to sit down and focus my attention for a brief moment on that one thing, while others require scheduling and repetition. And as the old adage goes, “If we don’t ever take time, how can we ever have time?”

So all I have to do is just “take the time”, and I bet this list would be cut in half before the week is out. For the rest of the items on this list, I’m just going to have to make a schedule for them.

The End of a Challenge

Day 31: Reflect on the last 30 days of journaling. Did you enjoy the experience? What did you learn about yourself? What was most difficult? Will you continue the practice? If so, take some time to map out how you’d like your journaling habit to continue. It can be entirely up to you; don’t worry about following a set of rules. Maybe you want to write every day, maybe you’re okay with a slightly longer session every month or so. Just make sure it’s something that you want to do.

Man, has it already been 31 days? I’ve gotta say, this was a lot of fun. Very insightful, I’ve learned quite a bit about myself and what I believe in. The most difficult parts where the ones that required me to admit my faults, that’s obvious, but also the ones that required reading over a series of topics, like the Archetypes, I usually do my entries late in the night, so I’m up at 2 AM with bloodshot eyes trying to read and then think introspectively afterwards. Not the wisest of decisions. Well, of course I’m going to continue this practice of journaling, it’s fun and interesting to have my thoughts on these digital pages. Hmm… It was pretty difficult to do this every day and there were days when I couldn’t, so if I had to form a plan to journal, I’d like to aim for 2-3 times a week. That would give me some time to reflect intently, as well as have days to not to, and most likely veg out in front of a game or show. But, I’ve been doing this for quite some time and now I’m going to keep writing, keeping all that I’ve discovered and learned with me.

Evaluate, Verify, Validate

Part two of my Heart-to-Heart with myself.

During that conversation with my family that took 3-4 hours long, my sister repeated this phrase twice, “Evaluate, Verify, and Validate.” Since she repeated herself, she obviously wanted me to focus my reflections on these three words. So let’s break it down, shall we?

verb: evaluate; 3rd person present:

  1. form an idea of the amount, number, or value of; assess.
    “when you evaluate any hammer, look for precision machining”
    synonyms: assessjudgegaugerateestimateappraiseanalyzeexamine, get the measure of;

    find a numerical expression or equivalent for (an equation, formula, or function).

So let’s see, to Evaluate is to start forming, measuring, inspecting, so in this case, it’d be forming an idea for my Self.

verb: verify

  1. make sure or demonstrate that (something) is true, accurate, or justified.
    “his conclusions have been verified by later experiments”
    synonyms: substantiateconfirmprovecorroborate, back up, bear out, justify,supportuphold, attest to, testify to, validateauthenticateendorse,certify

    antonyms: refute
    • LAW
      swear to or support (a statement) by affidavit.

OK, just as I thought, Verify is simply to confirm, plain and simple. The idea that is my Self will be.

verb: validate;

  1. check or prove the validity or accuracy of (something).
    “these estimates have been validated by periodic surveys”

And Validate is simply the providing of the evidence. The reasons of why something is. Why I want this idea to be.

So there we have it. Now I have a place to start this Heart-to-Heart with myself. Hmm, I guess I’ll continue with each word in order and dive deeper into my Self, to see what’s the source of my problems and hopefully, I can fix this and bring balance and peace back into my life.

And so passes 6 weeks…

6 weeks from today, I had accepted a challenge that I’ve posted for myself on An interesting challenge that’s meant to test and push me beyond my limitations and inspire me to achieve the goals agreed upon. The 3 goals were divided into 2 fitness goals and 1 life goal. They were as follows:

1) Bench press 80lbs
2) Perform the Strength training exercises with 70 lbs across the board

Get a job.

Unfortunately, I overestimated my abilities and couldn’t achieve the weight I had aimed for, nor could I get a job, as I am still unemployed. Alas, I have been defeated by this Challenge. but that’s alright, because I still have my ambition to become stronger, and I’ve found a new workout routine. And it would be an understatement to say that it was difficult. I’ll call it “The Push routine” for simplistic purposes, because that’s what it consists of, each exercise focused on pushing via bench press or squats or weighted sit-ups. I can only hope that pain on my upper right back isn’t serious or will hinder me from continuing my exercises because I hate being restricted.

Heh, I can tell I’m going to be sore tomorrow and that’s a good thing, in a twisted way. Twisted in the sense that it’s painful, but good in the sense that my body will adapt to this.

Nosce te ipsum, Latin for “Know thyself” which I have always thought was an important skill to master, the Self. To know how you will react or respond in any given situation because you know yourself that well. I always tell people that I’ll help them up whenever they fall, I may be laughing while I’m doing it, but I’ll still help… just laughing as I’m doing it. But knowing what motivates you, what weakens you, what fills you with compassion, anger, gentleness, fury, kindness, fear, is the key to understanding how to overcome the bad one and focus on the good ones. For example, I’m a sucker for a girl with curly long hair, I think artificial curling moreso than natural, but knowing this, I can understand what attracts me to some girls over others, and so on.

So now, I’m faced with another challenge, “What do I do now?” Well I think the answer to that is rather obvious: I keep going! I still need a job, Graduation is in June along with my loan payments, My volunteering orientation is the 24th, so there’s really no reason for me to slow down now. I can’t I have too many things to do! And with these new routines, I’m going to be in a lot of pain… Mind you, I’m smiling while I’m typing this. The ticket to the future is open, and I can’t wait to see what tomorrow will bring!